Shapeless, a way towards greater Freedom?

The dust finally settled.

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The dust of busyness,

The dust of distress,

The dust of exhaustion,

The dust of combustion.

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And Here, again, I begin.

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Words which have always captivated me left this screen for a long while. They never left me but they left the public eye, and here they come again, without any fixated expectation to be read but with an invitation to be with me, together, mindfully for a minute.

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Writing can allow the narrowing of the space between words, between shapes, opinions, reflections and emotions.

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And Here, I am, again.

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Pausing, shapeless.

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It does feel like a new beginning as I confess, I lingered quite a while in some ending.

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Everything has an end and a beginning, and this is as important to nurture the endings as much of the beginnings. And I rest in between. In-between.

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I am shapeless. The moment right before and after a shape is formed. The pure vastness of what I could call a “void”.

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Shapeless informs shapes and hopefully vice versa. However, if we are not mindful, we could easily be fixated by “shapes”, which for me can also be an allegory for the shape of an opinion, ideas or simply habits as much as body postures. And, we can get stuck into a body shape as much as we can get stuck into an opinion or habits. And where fixated ideas, habits and shapes are, we could potentially witness the rise of various dogmas or unspoken diktats coming from outside but also from our own terrain, as our habits can become also a form of subconscious dogma.

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But, my loves, being shapeless is still about being You, this is just in another version of You - a You that rest in the in-between enquiring about what is HERE for YOU, opening a doorway of what could be next without any expectation of what you could become next, what you could know next, without attempting to DO but instead BE.

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This is also about letting go of the “gripping” of wanting to know all the times, though this is so comforting to know. And what if the invitation could also be about being open to carve the way as it is being carved with and for us? Without rushing the process? I ask myself this question so often.

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In the land of yoga asanas, this is, in other words, being able to indulge yourself freely into the land of in between asanas and creating your own ones, which were never expressed before, because of the very unique nature of YOU 🤍. Is there room to explore on our own? For this, we need to be open to become shapeless, over and over.

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I always wonder and deeply question, in the Yoga world, the obsession of shapes (yoga asanas) as it seems we could well be missing the whole point of Yoga if we stay into the world of shapes only, however entertaining it can be, also for me. It is also like missing the main dish of a meal.

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Where is then our Freedom? Where is our authentic flow of Living then?

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My loves, don’t be afraid not be in any shape, not to know, to enquire by YOURSELF, because THAT is the gateway to find your own authentic You, at least for a while until a new version of You arises, shapes or versions of You never made before. 🤍

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That is what Yoga is also about for me. In “real” Life, beyond a yoga mat, there are many instances where we have to figure it out and we can be stuck in not knowing…and let’s face it, we are not always equipped to NOT know because so often we are told what to do, including in a yoga class. It can be scary, I know! And for this to become less scary, I personally practice the art of non knowing, being curious about this void, carving (physically, as the embodiment of my commitment) the way at the same time as it is being carved. And, THIS, has created immense freedom in my yoga practice and more importantly in my Life.

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Taking Life as it is, riding on its flow, with all the knowing and with all the non knowing. Container, no container as I often say in my yoga classes. We can navigate in both, and this provides, at least for me, immense freedom.

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There is no “right way”. All the ways before you were all made up (read this twice please).

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Of course they could be supportive “materials” but they are never the “truth” because the Truth is in your experience. Always. Always.

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Everything else is a point of view or a perspective.

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In this deep knowing that I know what I need to know at this moment I dwell and this feels spacious to me. I am open to expanding and enquiring through the portal of my own movement (of Life).

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From this place arises revelations or insights.

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I take what is useful and what bring ease at this very moment of being me. I drop the “should”, I drop the “how things should look/feel like”, the projections, dogmas as I renew my vows to my inner Freedom path. Let’s see how it goes for this year…

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From this place I engage with Life, as being committed to BE with Life is probably the ultimate spiritual practice, beyond the boundaries of a yoga mat and ashrams.

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I will meet you there, I dream. 🌬🤍

Photo by my talented friend Axelle Pendeliau Tennant